hello everybody... yeah i didn't die. i'm just not on the computer at all any more. i got a new one though, my very own.

my wedding is coming up. july 26th i'm so busy with life right now i'm enjoying it. i was just setting up my computer with all my favorites and such i thought i'd just see how everybody is doing please feel free to tell me anything and ask me anything!!!

Sometimes the body is weaker than the soul.

He wage war against the enemy,

Until his very last breath

He did NOT give up!

His body just gave up

He carried his broken body with him,

But it was only slowing him down.

He prayed, we prayed.

Were our prayers all in vain?

Was it your plan for him to die anyways?

I shall not believe that,

For your promises last forever!

So we all stand upon our faith.

We are at last united as one.

Together we will lift up our loved ones in hope.

If hope is born of suffering,

If this is really the beginning,

Then he is where he should be.

He is home!

He has his crown!

He has his mansion.

But should that comfort those who are left?

Are we not allowed to mourn?

For when the grief is still to near,

We cannot say.

Until everything passes,

When everything is finished

This is what it means to be held.

My Pastor died this morning. it hasn't hit me totally yet, although i did cry this morning when Jonathan called me and i dont' think i'm done yet.

He called me at like 7:00, for some reason i knew right away, but i didn't want to believe it. When he said i got bad news, i said to myself "don't say it!"

My Pastor was a good man and he will be missed dearly. I'm gonna miss his big chuckle and how he shook the kids hands until their entire body shook..lol

bitter sweet memories

well...i'm probably in a good place right now to start up dating everything that's been happening so far. i'll start with the most important.

my Pastor is not in good health at all. he had some sort of cancer at first and then like i think that's gone now but now his liver is doing horrible and he's all yellow and stuff. his missed so much church our elders are doing a wonderful job at making sure the church is still standing when Pastor is gone. but now pastor has retired and his son Chris is going to be taking over. this is hard for me. because pastor is more than a pastor to me. i can't explain it but i'm worried that alot of people will leave the church now because he's not pastoring any more. plus the fact that i want more than anything in this world for pastor to marry me and jonathan. heck i want pastor to be alive to kiss my first child and in the natural its not looking to good.

but i have faith that he will recover now that he's retired and all he's has time TO recover. please, all you people out there with like faith, pray for my Pastor. it would be great for him to be able to live out his retiredment. my church has a website if you want to check it out, its in my list of websites at the bottom of this page.

now, lets see what else? school? school? i guess is the same, i'm on break right now i don't go back until the 14th first day of the semester. woohooo? lol yeah right. this semester i have 5 classes instead of 4 and like, one is an intership its gonna be a little tough but i'll be able to handle it.

work is the same as well...we're just comming off of christmas rush so my hours are gonna be cut back...wonderful i can't wait to see those 100.00 dollar checks.. so sad. i'll get over it.

hmm...and then the game last night was THE BEST EVER! oh man, it was great Tucker and Ruuuuuutuuuu! the best fight i've seen in my LIFE! blood and bruises wooo man...i'm so glad that ruutu won that one. of course we CRUSHED those Leafs or should i say, "raked those Leafs" 6-2 yeah there was a lot of Maple Leafs fans going home with their tails between their legs, a what? 5-6 hour drive...hahaha..yeah that's great.

Saturday i'm going to a steeler party with jonboy. i hope it will be fun!

gotta go love ya all!!

Man, has it been that long since i last made an entry?

gosh.

welp, let me just say its been a very busy lately. i haven't had a chance to do anything on the computer. Its rare that i'm sitting here now. I had to kick my brother off. well..so the wedding plans are going as well as they possibly can. Jonathan and i are looking for a  house, Dee from work is helping us out with that, she works for Howard Hannah. we think we found the house, but we don't want to say for sure yet. we have 7 months or so til the wedding we have room to be picky still.

the girls and i went to David Bridal's the other day to look at dresses it was hard. nothing was there that i wanted and i felt like the girls hated the ones i liked and loved the ones i didn't.

oh well, i still got time

but at the same time i don't, its coming up so fast. i can't wait til its done with. i'm tired of this one day crap. i don't really understand why i have to waste money for only one day. i'm not excited for that at all...but for the days when i can have Jonathan come home to me after work and we can be together for ever and we can start our own family. that's what i'm excited for the days following the wedding.

i got tickets for the game tonight, Pens game, just in case you didn't know. i surprized jonathan with them he's so excited. i'm hoping that we get some goodies tonight but i doubt it.

ahh well....that's all for now i really don't feel like typing any more. i changed my layout....its still a work in progress because i dont' know if i like it right now. lol

doh! that totally sounds like the old diana...hahah!!!