hi there everybody!

lately i've been just living my life...going up and down on the roller coaster...spending most of my time outside in the sun. really taking advantage of this 75 80 degree weather...and to be honest with ya working out this brother and sister thing with little brother...i think God's been saying to me that i need to not think of my brother has some leech or some other type of parasite...

i know he looks up to me and loves me with his whole heart and more. he just wants to be like me and be with me and i just push him away cause he tends to be SO ANNOYING. but the thing is...i love little brother and even tho i have more meaner nicknames than i do nice ones, i do love him.

i remember when i found out mom was having gabe. i PRAYED with all my might to have a little brother, i really did...and when i found out that mom was for sure having a boy i was so thrilled...what changed?

three words: Gabriel was born.

and then he grew up to something that is me, only in boy form...its freaky

my sister, she's older than me..i love her too...but she hasn't exactly been somebody for me to look up too...i don't think she believes in the same things i do so its hard for me to look up to her a little when i see her where she's at now...but don't get me wrong..i DO love her and she isn't like a drug dealer or anything horrible or bad...she works hard at her job but i hardly see her...

i dont want to be like that for Gabe. that's what i'm trying to get at. i know getting along with little brother would make my parents happy. and would ease the tention in the house along with the screaming/yelling...

after this summer i think i'm going to come out differently then i was when i went in...

God's working on me and in me...and ya know he's always up to good on our behalf